Right now I think I feel more like a real, legitimately functional person than I ever have, and it isn’t because of the simple fact of being a parent, of some magical biological fulfillment; rather, it’s that the daily nitty-gritty of being a parent (of two!) has finally forced me to actually regularly meet and exceed the demands of the day, so as to keep my life afloat and the happiness of myself and my loved ones sustained. This is not unpredictable, but it’s still something I recognize in myself with surprise. There was a part of me that expected less. That I wouldn’t change much (hah), wouldn’t grow enough. But I can see it, and it feels nice.
Two kids is a different world, and I’m a different person.
Sorta. Lol. I still have bad days. But overall I’m feeling so much more capable than ever before. Yippee!
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