Marion Makes…

The alliance for infants and toddlers (nonprofit org that helps monitor premature or at-risk kids for development milestones) has sent us our first “self assessment” and I’m low key freaking out. I have thought Erica was developing fine, but this assessment wants her already doing stuff she is definitely not doing yet. It is sposta be a 16mo assessment and she is only 15mo, so her adjusted age is 14mo, but still. They want her starting to run and climbing and saying more words than she is. T_T

Am I doin a bad job?? Gonna have to do some research again, I reckon.

I also have to find a daycare for her so she starts socializing with other kids her age a couple days a week, and so that when stuff like my back giving out happens Nate’s work performance doesn’t have to suffer for taking care of her. That is also very scary. That’s my little girl, man. The world is dangerous. Yikers.

That being said, I feel like poop still so I dunno how much more of any of that I’ll be getting done today. I did find a few likely daycares yesterday and I filled some of the assessment and read the info packets today. My back is getting better, I can go up the stairs normally and almost walk without limping now, and I’m not worried about my right leg giving out. Still, I hurt a lot and can’t bend or lift Erica, or even really sit or lay comfortably. Tylenol/ibuprofen occasionally helps with surrounding muscle soreness, but they don’t usually touch the nerve pain. It will be another exhausting day. It’s truly mind boggling how exhausting and emotionally difficult nonstop pain is, even when it’s low level pain. Idk how people with chronic illnesses or injuries do it.